左手写他右手写着爱

紧握的双手模糊的悲哀

我的决定会有怎样的伤害

面对着爱人和朋友

那一个我该放开

一边是友情一边是爱情

左右都不是为难了自己

是为你想吧该为她想吧

爱虽然已不可自拨

装作不在意的你如何面对

右手写爱左手写着他

摊开的双手空虚的无奈

我的无言有最深沉的感慨

最亲的朋友和女孩

我的心一直在摇摆

一边是友情一边是爱情

左右都不是为难了自己

是为你想吧该为她想吧

爱虽然已不可自拨

装作不在意的你如何面对

你比我适合她  她是你梦想的爱

你幸福我开心给你让你爱她去吧

一边是友情一边是爱情

左右都不是为难了自己

是为你想吧该为她想吧

爱虽然已不可自拨

装作不在意的你如何面对

在好几年前就好喜欢这首歌，今天满脑子都是这首歌的旋律。。。

在此分享这首歌的歌词，但愿大家一起哼唱吧！

Its quite a long time i didn’t update my blog here. Not just because I was busy recently, I also know that less and less people will read my blog in friendster. Nowadays, everyone prefers to facebook rather than friendster. At least almost 99% of my coursemates here do not play friendster anymore. Anyway, I just want to express my feeling in my personal blog here.

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I had deleted many of my unrelated old blogs. No other reasons, I think that I should forgot what am I supposed to forgot. There is no point if I just live in the past and memory. Everyone has to look forward and works hard towards it.

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Suddenly think that I had passed my 21st birthday almost 6 months ago and going to be 22 years old soon. Am I mature enough as my actual age? Last month I had made a very big mistake that I would not forgot in my whole life. I did not tell many people, unless they hear from other people. I have no idea at all on how to solve the problem. In the end, I just can ask the help from my parents.

I know they are worry of me all the time, since I am away from them so far away from Penang. And, I felt very guilty to them. As their daughter, I always bring troubles for them, instead of helping them. When my parents were sick, I can’t do anything. U can consider I am adult already, in the older days, I should have work and earns money for them. However, I am still depending on my family now.

Am i an obeying daughter? I am not sure now. What I know, i always asks financial support from them, at the same time I spend money like water… Waste money in the unnecessary items.

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Next 2 weeks I am going back Penang again, to go for praying in a temple. Previously, I was not so so believe in what the saying in temple. However, I have to 101% believe it now. My whole family believe in Taoism, always pray in temples. Last few weeks, my dad went to ask about my family members’ fortune within this year in a temple near my house. I never tell my family about my problems met in studies or among friends. However, my parents were told that their daughter (me, hehe!)is not so happy now,she has many problems that never tell them. Wah!! I was not there at that time and I am sure he don’t know me since he saw many people in a day.

In my opinion, I think that religion is a path for you to express your feeling and a final destination of the soul. No matter what religion you are, there is more advantages rather than disadvantages. I have to admit that sometimes different religions will have some conflicts. The most important is the respect.

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There are too many things inside my mind, but I can’t write it all now. Will blog again when I have the mood in the future.

从小到大，我都很容易后悔，就算是些芝麻小事，当我错过了，我就会在想如果当时我没有怎样怎样，我是不是会更好呢？身边的几位友人都了解我，总是劝解我快点作决定，别再犹豫不决。所以三个月前，你再问我已经想清楚了吗，我问我自己，假如这一次我没好好把握你，你会不会慢慢的离我而去呢？而不是像当时的喜欢我呢？我知道我一定会后悔的。

与你在一起的日子里，我过得很快乐。我庆幸自己没有因为胆怯而放弃你。我已经放下了以往的事情，只想全心全意地对你，希望你可以看到我的努力。很对不起之前对你发了脾气，我们一起让过去只变成回忆，未来的路还很长，我们要一起走下去。

文字，是可以将一个人当时的心情完完全全给表露出来。

友人曾提出，阅读某人的文章，就可以猜透他当时写作的心情，自然也可以知道他所面对的快乐与悲伤。

之前我写的几篇文章，不知友人会察觉些什么呢？

而你们又能猜透我现在的心情是什么吗？

A new semester is going to start soon.. Am I ready to face the coming tensions of my study again? Since I had laft behind my study for a long time already. One of my friends always advices me to be more confident. Ya,  I have to do so because I have to be responsible to whatever I do and I have my responsiblity. Hope a new start will bring a new of ME!!!

Just finish my 2nd year final exam last week. It is a quite tough week for me to suffer during that time. Luckily now still survive, remain half life only.. :p

Having few days holiday at home, I have to come back UM again to start my elective project with my team mates:wei cheng, rong xiang, raymond and xin jie. Many seniors said it is enjoyable when doing elective, have many free time. But we have a special task, we need to go around pet shops to collect stool of reptiles and rodents. Usually the shop owners are very surprise when we told them we want to collect stool. hahaha… When I think back their faces, I also feel funny. I think they never think that the stool also have their uses to us?? Make me also abit paiseh…

However we have chances to go out shopping at the same time. Hee… Last two days was my first time went to Ikano since I study in KL. wei cheng also has chance to buy his new shoes and go one utama.rong xiang and xin jie can find their books in the bookshops. Raymond also go shopping at tesco. Everyone get benefits at the same time. hehe..

Next week maybe we will start doing culture. After that report and poster preparation.Hope we can finish them as soon as possible la… Jia you!!!Hope we will learn many and get new experience through this project.

There are many things happen during this March. The greatest impact of me is an accident met by 1 of our seniors last 3days. At 31 of March, we received a forward message that he passed away in an accident. At first, we are hardly to believe it since the next day is 1 of April. However, in the afternoon we get the confirmation that the news is true. It was a shock to me!! Although I was not very close with him last time, but at least I knew him before. He was a very good senior and doctor also. It is a great loss.

My mood was affected by this news that day. It made me think of oue life is very short. We cannot expect what will happen in the next second. Therefore, we have to appreciate every second, every minute and every day in our life. Please don’t always say that we can wait till next time only do something. If we care of some1, we have to tell them at soon as possible. If not, we may lose the chance to tell them and this will leave many regrets…

So friends, if u have read until here, quickly phone your family members or friends and show them that you are care of them. Don’t always quarrel with your boyfriend or girlfriend just because of minor problems. Because it’s fate that meet you 2 together, don’t simply break the relation between you all. Appreciate…

Long time do not online and post blog already.. Last month was my busy month. I have my final exam and we study, study, study like crazy!!! Luckily all over already. Now start second semester, without any holiday…Haiz…

In the last month of 2007, I have a memory night in Stadium Merdeka, with my idol, SHE!!!! Finally I have the first chance to go their concert in Malaysia. It is one of my dream, Haha… And now it has been realised. So touched! Especially when at the minute the concert start, my tears almost come out, so touched and happy till want to cry… My sister and I shout and sing along all the time during the concert, together with other fans. Overall, within the 2 and half an hour, everyone is very high. Although sometimes the PA system and microphone have problems, SHE still try their best to perform well on the stage. Before the concert start, I also met 2 of my primary schoolmates and also a guy same matric with me. LOoks like SHE also have the influences to gather all fans from whole Malaysia and meet them again. Haha..

I love you!!! Selina, Hebe & Ella. You are my superstar forever! Jia you! I am looking forward your next best performance.

Last week (10-17 august) was a busy week for me. My idol SHE came to Malaysia at 10 of august (Friday) and that was my first time to meet them face to face!!! It was a good memory to me because I like them very much. I also get their signatures and had the chances to shake their hands!! Haha… Very excited. Although I had to queue up for a long time and tried hard to squeeze in the crowd and find a best place to see them la…My image was totally different from ordinary days. Normally i am a quiet person, but that day I was totally crazy of the arrival of Selina, Hebe and Ella!!!! Luckily my friends stood far away from me that day. If not they sure will very surprise of my changes. Hehe…

12 of august( Sunday), I joined a HIV visit organised by Medical Society of UM. Play with many children. Actually not all of the children there have infected with HIV, they are just a group of unlucky chidren who are abundent by their family or lose their family. We played games, sang and took many photos. Even though very tired, but my thinking was changed abit. After the visit, I think that we as a healthy and normal person should always show our care and love to them. They will always feel happy if we try to concern about them. And for the children, even though they are away from their family, they also very tough and continue their lives happily. They still play with other children, as with their siblings and have been taken care well also.

13 of August(Monday), a farewell dinner was done for our seniors who are going to Klang. We ate domino pizza and KFC, very very full….Haha…Our buddies also get presents of body glove t-shirts. Hope our budddies will always remember us even go to Klang already. Miss you all..

14 of august(Tuesday), we have done a buddy exam for our little buddies. Hope they will study harder after the experience. Don’t follow what I did last year. Hehe… Jia you!

16 of august(Wednesday), I had done another crazy things in my life. I watched 3 movies in one day!! Jay chou’s secret, Evan …. and Ratatoille. Here I wan to recommand the Secret movie. I like the ending very much. For those who have not watched it, faster and go to watch!!! It is very surprise for Jay who first time be the director to produce this nice movie. I think I like him more and more now.

I have started my second year in UM already… Actually it’s a good start for me to set a new motto and try hard for my entire life in UM. My labmates are diffrent from last year, lecture halls also has been changed. People around me have any diffrences? I don’t know, I hope not… Because last time we did have a good time together, all chinese are very cooperative to solve every problems we met.

In this new semester, I change my hairstyle abit. Why? Maybe I don’t want to repeat any wrong things I did last time.

Jia you!!! The future is in our hands. Do your best start from now!!!